2/5/2026 - 10:48pm

good evening party people,

I had to lock in REALLY hard to finish EMT school, and I did not get back into blogging when i finished.
but hello!!! hi people!!! i've gone through a couple little phases in the meantime, after i went in person to finish my skills and testing I decided I really wanted to pursue paramedic and maybe more medical stuff in the future, but NOW I realize I can do fire academy virtually immediately whereas I'd need to wait 6 more months for paramedic (also someone could totally hire me and pay for my paramedic so here's hoping)

so look I'm not sure once again who my audience is here so idk how much I want to get into my private thought collection but I just bought a bunch of Joyce Manor albums and they are fantastic, shit is HITTING frfr. S/T, never hungover again, and cody are the rotation. They're just such nice little bite sized listens, around 20 minutes each. I used to be kind of a hater of those short ones?? like cmon that's barely an EP?? but I think i should prolly move more that direction bc then I can actually put stuff out. Most of the time the pressure of feeling like i need to release an entire cohesive concept album gets to me and then i don't do anything at all. I should just mock up some clean 90 second bangers and then pop em out!!! I always am like "mm what do i do next??" and then it sits in drafts for eternity. no longer. prepare for little baby song drops i guess.

alsooo i made a new friend at work and she is ADORABLE so I kind of asked her on a date but i dont know if it counts as a date per se bc i did not specify that it was one but regardless i am thrilled. i have had crushes before, but usually it's a little flutter and then i go about my business, but this time around the flutter turns into a deep stinging pain in my abdomen which I don't understand exactly but all i know is that I really want to talk to her again :))) Not sure if i'll continue to put blogs back into my routine, but I enjoy doing them so i'll leave you with a maybe.

maybe see you next week, or month, or year,
Koen