9/29/2026 - 11:06pm

good evening.

I got some advice from a friend regarding some of the stuff I was feeling in the last post. I think I just need to let it go. It's ok to not be friends. That sucks. But that's how it goes. Now I just need to slowly turn off that part of my thoughts and move on.

I suppose it's not a particularly unique situation. Being strangers again, that is. There's so many songs about it !!! Gotye??? I know I've heard more but I can't name them. Ahhh yes the human experience lovely lovely.

WHICH makes me think, this is such good songwriting kindle!! I could make some very relatable and cathartic lyrics about this.

Not now though.

I've put most of my musical energy into trying to get decent again. Been trying to grind out some TTNG, since that's hard. A guy in the crowd of the DOMi & JD BECK show mentioned that he loved TTNG but can't play them, which inspired the little competitive goblin in my brain to try. That guy was going to music school, so I figured I owed it to my music-school-dropout self to do some proving.

I recorded some of it last week and it was very humbling. I think I have it down ok now though.

I had an interview this morning. My best so far I think. I was able to be professional and composed. I only started talking fast and talking with my hands at the end. Hopefully it went as well as I feel like it did. I forgot to ask for feedback or what the next steps look like, so who knows.

That's all for now. My head hurts. I think I'm just gonna go vegetable mode and play video games until I go to sleep.

koen